Remember September 23......

Oh gosh life took a different turn on this day. I still not able to come out of it . Hope its my dream but then I have to face the reality she is gone. She is no more with me. The love of my life started going out with someone and I'm the last person in the world to know about this. What an irony ?? Even my brother knows that she moved on, its a pity I never knew that time in fact I came to about this only a month later. I rushed from The Kingdom to sort out things with her but then I was too late. The moment when she said that she started going out with someone over the phone I couldnt bear I felt like I had a heart attack. I was numb for some five minutes. I broke down into tears. It was the shock of my life. I have never experienced anything like this earlier. I couldnt bear the pain. I was crying daily.

Its a pity that even my GRE was approaching as well. Well there is no words to explain what all things were running in my mind and what all difficulties I have to face!! Thosw days were indeed really tough , each second was like an year to me . Then I realises there is no point in being thinking about the past. I should move on (Everybody keeps saying that trust me its easy to say that but then if u put yourself in that position then you would know)

Well I met her one day, we had some really tough conversation as I was literally killing her with my words, I asked her few questions which were making sense to me , but then I never got any proper reply.(In fact Im yet to know the reasons for the so called Break-up). The factors which gave lot of troubles between our relationship between me and her became a bonding factors in her realtionship with that guy ( God you can never understand a girl trust me on this). She said an one liner, He is a nice guy!!!!! ( How would you feel when u hear this, that too you were going out with that person for like almost six years) The imporant thing to be noted is he gave her a ring the buggar doesnt even know what she likes he gave her a gold ring( she doesnt like gold).....What an irony!!!!!!

Hmmmm that is life for you . You never know what happens next ...BTW its not like im cribbing about this.....I gave lot of room in my heart , but then at the end of the day she just routed me out. Life is tough its not easy as it looks like. I screwed up my GRE. I got very less score. I never gave up. I wrote my GRE 2. Cleared in style. Then I made up my mind to go to the land of dreams. That's right America it is...American dream with vengeance...You know what which is the worst thing in the world??? I will tell you to see your loved ones on someone's else shoulder...The pain you get out of it is quite unbearable....Hope time will have an answer to it..Having my fingers crossed...BTW Axi this is for you...I never cursed you ... and I never will....You were my first love my first kiss ...You will be there in my heart no matter what...... Cause , certain things in this world are immutable just like John....Be happy wherever you are and whatever you do... Im not making a point that Im a saint here ......