Remember September 23......

Oh gosh life took a different turn on this day. I still not able to come out of it . Hope its my dream but then I have to face the reality she is gone. She is no more with me. The love of my life started going out with someone and I'm the last person in the world to know about this. What an irony ?? Even my brother knows that she moved on, its a pity I never knew that time in fact I came to about this only a month later. I rushed from The Kingdom to sort out things with her but then I was too late. The moment when she said that she started going out with someone over the phone I couldnt bear I felt like I had a heart attack. I was numb for some five minutes. I broke down into tears. It was the shock of my life. I have never experienced anything like this earlier. I couldnt bear the pain. I was crying daily.

Its a pity that even my GRE was approaching as well. Well there is no words to explain what all things were running in my mind and what all difficulties I have to face!! Thosw days were indeed really tough , each second was like an year to me . Then I realises there is no point in being thinking about the past. I should move on (Everybody keeps saying that trust me its easy to say that but then if u put yourself in that position then you would know)

Well I met her one day, we had some really tough conversation as I was literally killing her with my words, I asked her few questions which were making sense to me , but then I never got any proper reply.(In fact Im yet to know the reasons for the so called Break-up). The factors which gave lot of troubles between our relationship between me and her became a bonding factors in her realtionship with that guy ( God you can never understand a girl trust me on this). She said an one liner, He is a nice guy!!!!! ( How would you feel when u hear this, that too you were going out with that person for like almost six years) The imporant thing to be noted is he gave her a ring the buggar doesnt even know what she likes he gave her a gold ring( she doesnt like gold).....What an irony!!!!!!

Hmmmm that is life for you . You never know what happens next ...BTW its not like im cribbing about this.....I gave lot of room in my heart , but then at the end of the day she just routed me out. Life is tough its not easy as it looks like. I screwed up my GRE. I got very less score. I never gave up. I wrote my GRE 2. Cleared in style. Then I made up my mind to go to the land of dreams. That's right America it is...American dream with vengeance...You know what which is the worst thing in the world??? I will tell you to see your loved ones on someone's else shoulder...The pain you get out of it is quite unbearable....Hope time will have an answer to it..Having my fingers crossed...BTW Axi this is for you...I never cursed you ... and I never will....You were my first love my first kiss ...You will be there in my heart no matter what...... Cause , certain things in this world are immutable just like John....Be happy wherever you are and whatever you do... Im not making a point that Im a saint here ......

How to save a life!!!!!

It was in the year 2002, he moved from one of the middle east countries to his own country (India) for his studies.He continued his 11th grade in a good school. He was jus 17 years old that time everything was new to him since he was brought up outside India.He had lot of troubles initially but he managed everything infact learnt how to manage things.It was the first day in his new school,he had a new experience as eveything was new to him no usual friends all were new to him.Though he managed to get a couple of good friends who are very much in touch with him till today.He saw her on the first day but it was not like he got struck by her or something not like the usual stuff what happens in movies it was something new.Infact in the beginning he didn't like her bit.Gradually he started talking to her it was not intentional it just happened.He started working with her for some projects that was the time when his friends started teasing him with her.Initially he did not like it but then later he started enjoying it.This was the case with the girl as well.


It was not even 5 months since he joined the new school he started having loads of fun which he never had in his life before.One fine day in Nov 2002 he asked her out in one of his friend's place.Well she was indeed happy and accepted the proposal.It was like one of the happiest moment of their life.They were very happy words are not enough to express their happiness and joy,but it did not last long.He broke up with her in a week.The story started from that point they broke up with each other for like one million times and they patch up again.

The very first break up infact did not last a week both started missing each other like hell as a result they patched up.They were going out really well though they had small problems now and then.They had some rough times as well during the 12th grade(they broke up and patched up like N no of times they don have a count of it) when u have so much pressure on your back cause that is like the crucial part of anyone's life for the matter one has to study well,by the time his parents kind of came to know what is happening between them but to their surprise they handled the situation quite well as in they did not made a big deal.
After his board exams got over he flew to the middle east inorder to renew his visa, that was the time when the parents of the girl came to know about this issue as in the relationship between them.He came down to India he was wondering why there wasn any news from her, later he came to know the fact that she got caught in her house.He felt really bad.It was one of the greetings card what he gave to her did the damage from then onwards tough time followed her throughout her life.


Let me tell you about her, she is one of the very few gentle girls one can come across ,very lively,down to earth very pretty,really tall and beautiful eyes infact her name itself has the meanings about her eyes.The best thing about her is her smile a billion dollar smile.Overall she is "The girl" that he has seen in his life.So miss someone like them will definitely trouble anybody for the matter.He got his 12th grade results they were pretty good infact he got more marks than her(She is suppose to be really good in academics)This result gave him some kind of relief to him though not fully.The pain which he went through each and everyday was very horrible.


It was crucial time for him to choose his career he decided to do Engineering, he chose a college which was really far away from the place where he was living thinking that there will be a room to forget her,but then time had a different plan he was forced to change the college as he was not happy with his college so he came back to his old place.But still he had a really soft corner in his heart thinking that she will definitely come back one day.Guess what his instict was right she came into his life after two years.

This time it was so good that they were going out really well.The first time he met her after two years he was very happy he was jumping with joy.They had wonderful time together infact this has to be the time of their life......They really loved each other.She has to be the best girl that a man can get...She was really happy about him and so is he...Things were alright for couple of years...........They got done with their college and stuff this is the crucial time in which things changed without their control...It was mainly because of the situation in which both were put up.But it was a pity that neither of them able to understand......They didnt take an iniatiative to solve the problem what was between them rather than fighting really hard between them which had various impacts on them........


Finally she tried getting rid of him , so they broke for the last time she went through lot of emotional problems well u cant really blame her she is also u human she badly needed someone during her tough time where he was not there infact didnt give her the attention what she needed the most.He took her for granted as a result of which things were really tough between them..Well it took some time for her to get him out of her mind and heart....But this was not the case with him.Its been months since they saw each other infact.....They were seperated by couple of thousands of miles and the relationship is in state beyond repair .He felt really bad that her absence was felt badly.He was just incomplete without her no matter what...
He consoled himself by thinking about the wonderful time they both had.Infact he is trying to get her out of his mind though it is mission impossible task cause she is deep inside his heart.....Its a pity that they are not together there are various reasons for it she was scared about her folks and misunderstanding between the two.......U wont know the value of anything as far as they are with u but u ll definitely feel it when they r away r when u miss them.............

Take care of ur loved ones u never know when they needed u the most just be with them no matter what......It is relatively easier to give birth rather than save a life......What is the use of feeling bad after u lose someone tht too someone who r indeed a part of you......U never know the value of it until u lose it but mind u if u lose em they r gone, its like a mirror which is broken.......Now he is asking himself where did he go wrong that he lost his life somewhere along in the bitterness and he would have stayed up with her all night had he known how to save a Life.He will be missing her till his last breath.......

(P.S-This is my very first blog so kindly bear with me any feedback are most welcome looking fwd for tht so tht i can improve myself :)